I’ve gotten fat.
There’s really no sense in trying to sweeten it – I’ve probably put on 30 pounds since my birthday last year. The last 10 months of my life have been upside down crazy. I can come up with any number of excuses for being lazy: Mom got her cancer diagnosis, and I was preoccupied with her care. I started working mad numbers of hours. I was depressed about everything. Those are all true statements.
But it doesn’t change the fact that I just stopped any kind of physical activity altogether and started eating terribly.
But, I’m going to fix it. Going to get back to running. Improve my diet. Starting now.
I do better with motivation, a reason, a sense of purpose, whatever you want to call it. So this morning, I signed up for my sixth half-marathon – November 5th. I haven’t run in months, and I know I’m going to have to work extra hard to get back to where I was, but I need to do it. Because I hate looking at myself in the mirror right now – and that’s a reason to do this. Plus, it cost me nearly $100 bucks to register. And that’s big motivation for me – there’s no way I’ll let $100 go to waste!
Somehow, writing this out validates my need to do this even more, and makes me accountable to those people that read my blog.
Of course, I can’t do anything without rewarding myself. And running is inextricably linked to music for me. I cannot run a foot without music in my ears. So I signed up for a Rock n’ Roll race. A band at every mile along the course – hello reward! I’ve done three of them before, and they’re really well organized and a ton of fun. And when I ran San Antonio, some band along the course was covering Will Hoge. If that’s not awesome, I don’t know what is!
The half-marathon may only be 13.1 miles, but it’s going to be a long road getting there. I’ve got a little over 23 weeks – 163 days in total. My journey starts now.
Wish me luck.